A Quick Detour

As of the moment, I'm really pre-ocuppied by a lot of things. So here's my deal. I'm self-supported myself for 5 years to finish college, do these rackets and sideline stuffs and land a job after college but I still find myself lost.

Its really frustrating to have things managed especially when you're the eldest and usually expected to help the family. Sometimes I think that Life is a big pressure cooker(haha). It's really hard for me to land a job as a programmer and I don't know how I ended up like this.

I was good during college not that good but you know the 'average good'. Then, after graduation I'm one of the million applicants from the batch of 2013 who are competing for their future. Unfortunately, I'm also one of those applicants who got rejected multiple times. In the IT world, employers prefer male developers so that's one factor that discourages me. Second, I need to get a job to help my mom since we're in a financial crisis that time. Third, it's really boring having eat-sleep reps. everyday. At first, I tried sending my resumes as IT but on the third month of the repetitive rejection, I got tired and tried all the possible positions applicable to me.

Then I got hired to my current company having a position that's really far but quite connected to my course. I liked it here. My environment is nice, the pay is not that bad and the culture is nice. I was even promoted and I think I have that going for me which is nice. But there's this 1% that I'm not comfortable with - I'm half happy. So as of the moment I'm trying to find myself and know what i really wanted and live. For now, I'll just in the rain and give it some time. Just one thing, I love goping to places and the thought of learning new languages. I have kept those things in mind.